been awhile

so, this is a new blog. i am gettting pretty tired of myspace. i will keep the account, as it is a great way to keep in touch with old friends. it just does not do it for me anymore.

i got a lot done today. i had two appointments today and was gone from 9:30 until 2:45. the more i think about it, it may be time for a new job. i am really tired of getting home so late.....it is often 8:30 or later when i get home. i have applied for a job at the VA, but I do not think that i will get that one yet....it often takes a long time to get on there. i am very confident that i will get the job at dcs. sure of it. just not sure if i want it. but it will get me home earlier at night, which will be important once the baby comes.

speaking of the baby......we have tried again and are going to start testing late this week. i am trying to keep calm, but i know i will not be completely secure until i see the heartbeat and have passed the first trimester. not until then. the baby dying still seems so unfair....i was only a day away from the second trimester. i do okay most of the time, but occasionally find tears running down my face when i am alone or all is quiet.